And interesting here, is that when I am in this flow of expression, where it’s really ME coming forth in expressing what I see / expressing the nature of a point, within that there is no experience of a want or desire in relation to ‘getting something’ from the audience, or to have them ‘see me’ a certain way, or to have them ‘like me’ — because in that moment of expression, I am simply expressing Me, for ME, and fascinatingly though the expression comes forth spontaneously and can appear very ‘energetic’ and perhaps ’emotional’ — within me there is no energy — there is no stimulation happening, I am actually quite stable, clear, and quiet within myself, and remain aware of the moment and aware of myself.
Whereas when I go into a personality, for instance, ‘being entertaining’ — I find in that, that it’s triggered by this moment in which there’s an opportunity to say something / do something to GET a response from someone; like GET a laugh, or GET a smile, or GET them to like me in that moment, or GET them to admire me in that moment. Like, there’s a moment where within me is a PULL, or URGE of ‘I want to say / do this because I WANT to experience this or that response that I can see I would GET from him / her / them’.
So within that it’s not an actual Self Expression — it’s a Personality used to support a Character of ‘feeling good’ through getting attention. It involves a System — it involves generating ENERGY to, for a moment make myself FEEL something. It’s about manipulating myself and my world to get ENERGY, to get an experience for myself that ‘I Like’ — a moment of experiencing myself as ‘more than’. Within this, actually using the MIND — instead of accessing real Self Expression.
And within this, in accessing and acting out / living out such a personality, and such a character, what I see is that many times in order to have this personality and energy play out, I am using and fueling and substantiating and supporting whatever particular Mind programming a person has accepted, as the basis of their Humor and what Stimulates and Entertains them. So, in bringing someone to a point of laughter and stimulation through impulsing their judgments, self definitions, opinions, values, I am Accepting and Allowing those judgments, self definitions, opinions, and values to exist in them and in humanity / consciousness as a whole — and within that, accepting and allowing all the outflows and consequences and personalities and physical actions that come as a result of such judgments, self definitions, opinions, values.
Like, joking and making fun of someone or something in a moment, may seem like it ‘doesn’t matter’, or ‘doesn’t have an effect’, on anyone, and is therefore ‘innocent’ — is not actually so, because it is fueling and perpetuating the entire system of Stimulation to get / experience energy through one’s accepted and allowed Judgments, Opinions, Values, Definitions — supporting the experience / relationship in people’s minds with each other, where we see each other as sources of stimulation / energy as feelings and emotions and experiences — as a point of Self Interest through which we have Separated ourselves from who we really are as Life as Equal as Here.